how vicarious

i sleep with my textbooks. i read them until my eyes close at night and i awaken with about 4 books, 2 binders, 1 clipboard and a pen around me every morning. i think i need a bigger bed to accomodate my student sleeping arrangements. they are everywhere. they move from my bed to my desk to my kitchen table to my car to jeff's house and back again. it's truly scary how many pages i am supposed to read in the next 3 months! and i was so gung ho about it just 2 weeks ago when my lovely student credit line financed my $500 worth of literature. actually text books are hardly literature. literature is more like war and peace which i miss very much because i don't have time to read it anymore. i feel too guilty to open up war and peace when i have 5000 pages of other reading to be doing - for classes for which i'm paying outrageous tuition for! sigh. i need to hire someone to do my reading for me. which is crazy because i love reading! i'm just a big paradox i suppose.

i don't know why i used the word 'vicarious' in my subject line. it just came out and i decided to keep it. it sounded good with the first line of this blog as though i was going to say something much more shocking. let's call it the word of the day. it's such an exciting word to use. maybe it'll make someone want to read this blog.

i feel much better now. i gotta go read.