Hotel Rwanda

Tonight I went and saw "Hotel Rwanda." Me, being an International Studies major, thought it would be a good thing to see. Impress those professors. Just kidding, no professor of mine really cares. Anyway. I have learned a lot about Rwanda this year, and it is incredibly sad what happened. I am sad that we abandoned them, and I'm sad we see these things every single day on the news and we "go back to our dinners." I don't know how much there is that I can do personally, but that is why I decided on my major in the first place. About 2 years ago, I watched a documentary on TV about child soldiers, mostly in Africa, but in lots of other places around the world too, and that is when I realized I had a passion for something. I figure I can start with a degree, and see what happens next. Lots of people ask me what I will do when I am done university and usually I just smile and say, ohh I don't know, work for the government or something. But what I really hope is that something meaningful will come up, and that I can do something that matters in the lives of real people. It annoys me in class when we discuss whether or not we should use the term "third world" or "less industrialized" or if the USA is to blame for all the world's problems. I know that it is good for me to see the big picture, and to learn the schooled views of it all... but I hope that I never get caught up in the academic language. When you learn the academic language of something, you risk the possiblity of become separate from the reality... for example, there are several terms used in the military that are strategically used so that the soldier is able to remove themselves from inhumane acts they are doing. You learn of the evil of the enemy, not of a man. In fact the enemy is not fully human. I'm getting off topic here. My point is that I don't ever want to become a women in an office arguing about structural development or modernization. I don't ever want to forget the reasons I'm doing what I'm doing.

This is what happens when you write after midnight :)